A mother loves their child/children like no other. The relationship that a mother has with her kids is different from any other as well. We will go to the ends of the earth to make sure they are ok and have the best of every.single.thing. I am blessed to have 2 beautiful boys that love each other and depend on each other so much. And Jax is only 11 months. I now know why Jax was sent to me b/c I think if I would have had a girl second it just would not have worked for Levi.
I realized recently that maybe there might be something wrong with Levi's speech. It has been a tough thing for me to swallow and accept. In all other aspects of his development he is perfectly fine. I am truly grateful for that. It wasn't until I was in his Sunbeam class at church that I realized he wasn't talking like the other kids. But at the same time, he just turned 3 in December. He is by far the youngest in his class.
I cried...and still cry...I cry as I write this post. I felt a sense of failure for Levi. I felt a sense of responsibility for they way he talks. I felt that if I had only read more books or tried a little bit harder he would be perfect in all aspects. I am at home with him and I am with him 24/7. I failed him. But then I knew it could be fixed and he can get help. I got some helpful advice from my sister who just happens to be a Speech Pathologist. And our new journey has begun to help Levi communicate better.
Matt and I decided that I should do my own mini pre school with Levi. Everyday we work on something with his speech. We do it while Jax is asleep so he can focus and learn. I teach him 2 letters a week and we work on the sounds the letters make. We do shapes and colors and numbers. He already knows how to count to 15 and on the first try he got all the shapes correct. This time alone with mommy is our special time. It's just me and Levi. No interruptions! He loves it! This is our second week doing the mini pre school and it really works. He looks forward to what I have in store for him that day.
Levi's biggest struggle is putting the sentences and words together. He talks so fast that his words get jumbled. He has a big vocabulary but he needs to think about what he wants to say. I think that is why he gets so frustrated b/c we can't understand him. Tomorrow morning we are going to have him officially tested to see if there is a speech delay. I will probably cry...again...but I know it will be ok. Levi is a bright and smart kid. Tissue please...I need a tissue dang it.
We love Levi and whatever struggles he has we will do any and every thing to fix them. I know it isn't my fault and that I didn't fail him. I know he will get better and that he will be ok. We want him to know that mommy and daddy will always be there to help him and he can depend on us for anything. So we will see what tomorrow brings.
To be continued....
1 comment:
We had the same issue with my youngest. I felt so bad that anytime he said anything we would reply with, "what??". And that only frustrated him more. It got to the point that he would tell us we weren't listening to him, but really, we just couldn't understand him. He qualified for speech therapy a couple of years ago. They came to our home, then as he got older, he went to school. He's in Kindergarten now & I just got a call this week from his speech therapist telling me that he doesn't qualify anymore! We are so proud of how far he's come! With a lot of love, patience, & effort on your part to help him, he will succeed! And remember, it's not your failure or his. In my opinion, his brain processes sentences a lot quicker than he can speak & it gets all jumbled. And to me, that just means he's really smart! :)
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