It still hurts...a year later. A year ago today I had a miscarriage at 8 weeks. The pregnancy was not planned and was a total shock to us but we were super excited to welcome another child.
I won't go into all the details of how everything happened as I've already written about that last year. But I will say that every day for the last year I have looked at the picture that I got at my dr's appointment and saw the heart beat and said a quiet "I love you" to that picture.
Someday this child will be with us again and I know that Heavenly Father had a greater need for our child than we did. We didn't know if the baby was a boy or girl but it didn't matter to us. We'll find out in the eternities.
We named our baby Taylor Reese so we would not go through the rest of this life just calling the baby "it" or "baby". Taylor deserved more than that.
It's very bittersweet because here I am 3 days before I deliver our 4th child remembering the loss of our 3rd child. If I could have timed it any better I honestly would love to have this child today. It would turn a day of sadness for us into a day of happiness. But I know someday this day will not be painful for me anymore.
I am grateful for the knowledge that I have about eternal families and the beliefs that I have. I am thankful for the sacrifices that were made so that we can live again and see all of our family members again someday.
2 comments:
Melissa, it does get easier, but you never forget. I have seen many miracles and blessings come from the loss of our 3rd child. There is a plan for everyone and a reason for everything. One day you might get to see why it happened and understand why Taylor only needed a body. I hope you know that I'm here if you ever need to talk. Love you.
Melissa, it does get easier, but you never forget. I have seen many miracles and blessings come from the loss of our 3rd child. There is a plan for everyone and a reason for everything. One day you might get to see why it happened and understand why Taylor only needed a body. I hope you know that I'm here if you ever need to talk. Love you.
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