A thankful Thanksgiving

I am so thankful for my small and wonderful family. Without my husband and my two kids I would feel so empty. This year around Thanksgiving I knew it would be a difficult time for me. Why? Because November 26th was my due date for Taylor.

I did not want to spend the day crying although I could have. So that is why I was so obsessed with fixing our tree on Saturday. It was either sit around and cry for the child we lost and blame myself or keep my mind occupied with happier times. I chose the happier times.

Even as I write this I fight back the tears and I still feel sad for the baby that is not with us here on earth. Every day I see my one and only picture we have of Taylor and I smile and say a quiet "I love you" to the picture. It makes me feel good inside and not sad.

It is very strange to me to be pregnant 2 times in one year. I still get very nervous even at 18 1/2 weeks for the baby I am currently carrying. I go back to the doctor next week and the gender will be 100% verified for us. We're so excited for that!

So this year for Thanksgiving I am grateful for eternal families and the two children and wonderful husband I have been blessed with. I am thankful for Matt's job that he has and all the sacrifices he makes for our family. I am thankful for my extended family that we don't get to see very often. Although we might not be close to you being here in Texas we do think of you often. I am thankful for my parents and all that they taught me.

I wish all of you a happy and wonderful holiday season. May you remember to always be grateful not just during the holiday season.